I guess it's for real. We have a house again. O.O *pinches self* All our stuff is supposedly at the house now. And my dad and bro are already moved in and slowly sorting through things.
So I went in earlier to start clearing out stuff and sorting out my room. You know how that goes when you go through your life in boxes from years ago. Small miscellaneous junk that each had their own sentimental meanings.
I was in awe with all my art work. "Wow, I was more artsy." Well, so far that's what I've gone through was my art boxes. And my yearbook/notebook box. Went through to find pictures of people I had known who passed away recently, people I didn't really know too well before but somehow friends now, people who I knew one way before and now know on a different level (i.e. a former teacher I have to speak with on a first name basis now - took me a year to adjust).
My notebooks are my treasures though. Obviously you all know I like to write. I stopped for a while, but before Xanga came about, I used to write in random notebooks all the time. Unfortunately it wasn't organized really. Like I could have things written chronologically in 4 notebooks back and forth.
Found some of my poems. Will post some later.
Anyways, while rumaging, I'm trying to figure out how to arrange my room with the very minimal space from what I'm accustomed to. I technically lost 4 years. My life packed in boxes. It's like I lost everything and I have it all back. My brother said he's finally able to pick up from 4 years ago.
But we got to thinking, after looking through things, we've changed a lot in that time. A lot of our style has "grown up", certain things have changed, but we find things we miss and want to enjoy a little longer while we still can. Pick up from where we left off? Or meet it half way? Or completely dump it out and pick up from our current life?
The possibilities are endless of course. We shall see. I'm hopeful. I believe the biggest piece missing from me has been that alone. Just having "me" again. I've been getting pretty moody with the people I've been living with lately because I'm so close to getting my life back, and they keep telling me I won't. Who knows, and for dam sure they don't. I need to do this and if it still doesn't work out, then I can finally explore the thought of moving away. Unfortunately I will have to abandon my dad and bro in a sense, but I may have to do it. Again, we'll see.
But yeah, that's the news lately. ^.^ I'm off tomorrow (yay) so I will spend the day tying up some loose ends. Till then... ;)
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